It’s almost funny how I often I try to fool myself saying I don’t have expectations. When in reality I have a list a mile long. The past two years my relationship with the Lord has consisted of him asking me to say yes and surrender my expectations and plans.
I haven’t always been so willing to surrender. I am pretty stubborn. So, what happens when I finally say yes to his plan ? Everything and nothing all at the same time. Everything I need and nothing that I want. (Ok, sometimes what I want is what I get too, like Uganda)
See The Lord doesn’t change plans. He doesn’t go back on what he has planned for me. I am the one who try’s to make my own plans and mold my plans into something I want or think that’s best. The funny part is every time he “changes” my plans I am always so thankful for the outcomes. God was, and his plans were sovereign before the Earth was created. Yet, sometimes, I my little (not so important) self think He all of a sudden won’t be and I have to plan for myself. This thinking is ludicrous. The Lord is constant, faithful and careful. His plan is not thrown together last minute. Sometimes I get nervous or anxious or fearful the Lord will forget the desires of my heart but I am reminded each day of his promises. “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid , and do not be dismayed for The Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 Oh how I am thankful for his promises. I am thankful I don’t do this alone that he is truly here wherever I go.
When I walked into O’hare airport 3 weeks ago I thought I had an idea of what my life was going to be resembling. I had expectations, plans, dreams and goals. Ultimately though I know he is faithful and his plan is better.
I asked for lemons and now I have limes. Disappointed… Absolutely not. Surprised… Of course. Learning to be patient…. Always. It’s about trusting HIS plan not mine.
This year is a year of learning. Learning to say Yes to God, yes to loving and serving others and learning to say no to myself. This year is full of lessons on what to do with the blessings and opportunities The Lord has given me. Whether they be lemons or limes. (I’ve heard both limeade and lemonade are good ) This year is about laughter, joy and worshiping my with every breath I take.
Ultimately I know The Lord is calling me into bold faith, to say Yes! with no doubt instead of yes? Doubtfully. “Now faith is the assurance of things we hope for and the conviction of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1 He is telling me to have confidence in his plan and his alone. To let go and let him work. God is so good and my heart is so full. The Lord is so faithful in this adventure.
1) Spilled a little sugar on my drying rack in the kitchen. Less then 5 mins later I was a mass murderer of the ant species.
1) trip to Kampala was so wonderful, reuniting with my best Ugandan friends, few mzungu friends and visiting Sanyu’s babies home was incredible.
2) I also met some new friends in Kampala and I loved getting to know them.
3) bought American cooking ingredients in Kampala and now I can make some favorite food items
3) Got to preach at the boys high school, being reunited with them has made my heart very happy.
All the love from Uganda